Updated: Apr 19, 2020
Making the decision to move in a new direction requires seeing a path. This starts by taking one step forward. The beginning isn't always easy. The truth is you only have one life. If you don't go for what you see at the appointed time, it could cost you more than you wish to lose.
I shared in a previous post why I decided to start blogging. Coming to that decision was not easy, I have been here before. Do I really want to be pushed out of my comfort zone again? Yet here I am launching out into the unknown, writing one post at a time.
I haven't always followed the straight path or stayed in my lane, which has been very costly for me over the years. My decision to not yield to God's process and direction, whether it was knowingly or not, have impacted my life in many ways - my finances, health, relationships, among other things; sometimes with devastating outcomes.
Without even recognising it, I had allowed destructive cycles, patterns and fears to derail me from His righteous path. Choosing to live life 'my way', wasn't working. I was desperate for acceptance, constantly seeking the opinions of others over my own and afraid of getting it wrong.
Who said it would be easy
I learnt the hard, difficult and long way, that maturity does not come from age but from experience. I can admit these paths were challenging, scary, wrong, naive, hard and many times painful. Many problems could have been avoided, replaced by better experiences and enjoyable memories. And yet the Lord in His loving mercy reached for me. The scale on my eyes began to fade and I began to see more clearly who He says I am.
There is an expression which says, "seeing is believing". In the context of making decisions, there are many things we see but do not believe are true or real. If you do not believe something is true and/or real, you would not consider it as part of your decision-making process. When the living word of God is not understood and applied, you cannot be transformed by it. I like to put it this way,
When you are blind you cannot see the path you walk, the same for those who are asleep.
People who sleepwalk do it with their eyes open but they do not see the same way they normally do when awake. Your eyes can be open but unless you are awake, you will not see.
So Jesus said to those Jews who had believed in Him, If you abide in My word [hold fast to My teachings and live in accordance with them], you are truly My disciples. And you will know the Truth, and the Truth will set you free. (John 8:31-32)
Living life involves walking a path. Every day we make decisions which navigate the way we go. We believe within ourselves that we are right. I believed and lived this lie for years. I had conditioned myself to live in the pretence of my broken inward condition.
My reasoning was actually ignorance, knowledge based on head and world knowledge without God's wisdom and word. I had built walls around myself using bricks of materialism, culture, pride, tradition, religion and independence, accepting it as my "normal". The question is, whose norm should be my normal?
It was easy to use reasoning to defend and cover up my fears and desires. With it, I was walking a path which leads to death and destruction. My outward activities made this seem improbable, but inwardly my heart was deceitful and desperately sick. Who can search the heart with the labyrinth which hides within it? No one. Only God can examine our hearts and bring to the surface what is rooted within it.
"There is a way which seems right to a man and appears straight before him, but at the end of it is the way of death." (Proverbs 14:12 AMPC)
I realise from the testimonies of what God has done in my life, I see how foolish, obstinate and broken I was. I needed a way out. I knew I could not venture into living a purposeful life without Him. There was no way I could live complete and whole without Him. Only through Jesus do I see the Way, the Truth and the Life. Do not be fooled.
Jesus explained, “I am the Way, I am the Truth, and I am the Life. No one comes next to the Father except through union with me. To know me is to know my Father too.
(John 14:6 TPT)
When a child does not know who its Father is, the child will struggle with a lack of identity, and wonder around looking for who s/he is and where s/he belongs. When you accept your identity in Him and know whose you are, you no longer live to perform. Instead, you desire to love Him, and part of that expression is seen in your willingness to walk with Him daily. The bible shows us the lives of those who chose to walk with God - Enoch, Abraham, Noah, Jesus to name a few.
God wants to walk with us before he works through us, and walking with Him will reveal His path for you.
My experiences and failings became opportunities to learn more about the different characteristics of God. I knew I needed Him more every day. I needed Holy Spirit to teach me His Ways, to be My Guide and pour His refreshing Presence upon me.
Your New Path
I don't know about you but I find it a tad challenging to make the 'right' choices and decisions. Sometimes I leave the path and fall back into walking "in my way". I become impatient, distracted and disobedient, not involving God in every area of my life. I return to using my own reasoning to make decisions. Before I know it, I fall away from His clear and righteous path. It can happen to anyone. We have to die to self daily in order for us to remain aligned with God's will and plans.
The best place to start seeking your new path is in the bible. It is the living Word of God - powerful, insightful and life-changing. It gives practical knowledge on how to draw closer to God. As you spend time in the word, your conversations with God will increase and you will fall deeper in love with Him.
Truth’s shining light guides me in my choices and decisions; the revelation of your word makes my pathway clear. (Psalms 119:105 TPT)
What this verse is saying is that for you and I to see a clear pathway, we must depend on the shining light of Truth, the Word of God. The Amplified Version reads this way, "Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path." When the way is dark, you cannot see, and when you cannot see, your ability to move is hindered and delayed. With light, you can see clearly what is before you and make the right decisions and choices on which way to go.
Not following God's word has led me down paths only He saved me from. Trusting in my own understanding and passions have led me astray many times - from making bad decisions with money to staying in relationships longer than was necessary to doing business the wrong way. The only way to find the path God has for your life is by asking Him to show you. God is willing, able and ready to do that.
Who is leading you along your path?
There is something I want you to know above everything else I have shared with you, God loves you. Let that be enough for you to start your new path. There is no one who loves you the way He does. Be encouraged in the knowledge that:
It is the Lord Who goes before you; He will [march] with you; He will not fail you or let you go or forsake you; [let there be no cowardice or flinching, but] fear not, neither become broken [in spirit—depressed, dismayed, and unnerved with alarm].
(Deuteronomy 31:8 AMPC)
Going through loss woke me to my brokenness, it was then I accepted God's invitation. I won't go into it right now, but without it, I could easily have continued travelling down the ungodly path, living without sight and direction. God doesn't want that for us. He has a plan, purpose and promise.
Take a moment to pause and reflect on the path of your life. Do not let this be your outcome, there is still time:
You can rationalize it all you want and justify the path of error you have chosen, but you’ll find out in the end that you took the road to destruction. (Proverbs 14:12 TPT)
Keep vigilant watch over your heart; that’s where life starts. Don’t talk out of both sides of your mouth; avoid careless banter, white lies, and gossip. Keep your eyes straight ahead; ignore all sideshow distractions. Watch your step, and the road will stretch out smooth before you. Look neither right nor left; leave evil in the dust. (Proverbs 4:23 - 27 MSG)